Monday, October 31, 2011

Halloween 2011

This year I struggled with the decision to let Tinsae go trick or treating with his older brothers, but in the end, we decided to wait another year. Attachment and bonding is still a work-in-progress, and letting a 3-year old go out and about to complete strangers and receive LOTS of candy, just didn't quite make much sense to us.

So, Tinsae, Cassie & Mom headed into Walmart to do some grocery shopping (something Tinsae loves to do!) and Dad took Noah & Muluken trick or treating in Fremont. (Jordan went along for support!)

Muluken wanted to be a red Power Ranger and Noah wanted to be a skeleton (kind of tame from year's past!). Here are a few pics before they headed out in the rain and cold!







 

Thursday, October 27, 2011

This little thing called ... Attachment

This is a hard post to write. Deep down I knew that it would take more time for Tinsae to “bond” and “attach” to us than Muluken. But I just didn’t think it would be this HARD for me to watch him go with complete strangers without looking back!

Tinsae was so young (2 years old) when he was relinquished. He was in 3 different orphanages since June of 2010. He had many different caregivers (called nannies) who came and went in his life. He relied on all those nannies for food, clothes, shelter, play, hugs and kisses. He was transferred from orphanage to orphanage with little explanation. He followed the very strict orphanage schedule with little defiance. He was told by these nannies that he trusted for so long, that we were his new mommy and daddy. He hugged us when they told him too. He let us hug and kiss him when we wanted too. He went with me to the hotel with no problems and no looking back. 

Tinsae has lost everything. He has lost his first mommy and daddy. He has lost his country, his culture, his language, his food, and his nannies. Yet, he still smiles. He still hugs and kisses us, even though nobody tells him too. He still calls us Mommy & Daddy and looks to us for food, clothes, help, and snuggling.

But, he also looks to others for these things too. And that breaks my heart. I know others do not understand what it feels like. They like the extra hugs, a hand to hold, or an extra smile from an adorable little boy. But I know that if I didn’t try to keep him close, he would easily walk away with another stranger without looking back to his Mom. I know others don’t understand that this means that he is not “attached” to us yet. You might wonder how I know all of this. Because how many 3 year olds do you see walking away with complete strangers for no reason at all (no candy, no promise of a toy, no nothing) and with no fear or worries? 

It hurts. We have only been home for four weeks and together for five weeks, but deep down I was hoping for so much more for our relationship. So, where do we go from here? Well, WE stay home a LOT more. WE only go by family members and only for a short amount of time. WE only give Tinsae food, snacks, toys, clothes, etc. WE snuggle with him, hug and kiss him, and try to stop others from doing so. It’s hard, because Tinsae is such a cute little boy and we want everyone to love him as much as we do. But, we know we need to stress how important it is for Tinsae to bond and attach to us and only us. We need to become his family in every true sense of the word.

So for now, we’re back to hanging out and snuggling. We play with toys and wait for his brothers, sisters, and Daddy to come home at the end of each day. We read a lot of books and talk about everything we see around us. I try to get to take care of his needs whenever he needs something, but am also very careful on setting boundaries for him not to get everything he wants!

If you’re reading this and do not understand, please just ask me what all this talk is about on “attachment and bonding”. I think I have bought and read every adoption book out there and read and re-read every blog on the internet. I know what I need to do and where I want to be with our sweet Tinsae. It will just take more time and a little patience!

Please pray for us!











Wednesday, October 26, 2011

Noah's Surgery

Today was a very long, stressful, but overall good day! Brad, Noah, Tinsae and I all left the house a little before 3am to arrive at St. Luke’s Hospital in Milwaukee at 5am. Noah was scheduled for surgery at 7am to have a bone tumor removed from his back.

Noah was a trooper and put on his brave face for all of us! He didn’t know really what to expect but listened carefully to all the nurses and doctors. He was quite the handsome little guy before the surgery!



The surgery took a little over an hour and then Noah was in recovery for at least an hour. When Noah was wheeled into his room, he was in a LOT of pain! It was so hard to watch my little man be in pain. The pain medication finally kicked in and he started to settle down a little bit and doze on and off. He was able to drink some water, eat two orange sherbert cups, and drink some apple juice. He was just like his father; Noah had no patience and wanted to go home! So after about an hour, we walked out to the car and headed home. Noah slept for a good hour before eating something from McDonald's. He slept when he got home and just watched some TV. He hasn't needed to take the pain medication yet, just some motrin. He's so TOUGH! Love you little man!

 



Sunday, October 23, 2011

One Year Ago Today...

We were matched with our sweet Tinsae! Since Tinsae was considered a "waiting child", our file was reviewed by the Holt staff at their weekly "committee" meeting, to see if our family was a good fit for Tinsae. I received the phone call while working that afternoon and quickly called Brad. Brad just stated, "I'm not surprised!". 

Tinsae has been home four weeks now and thriving! He LOVES his brothers, sisters, Mommy & Daddy! It's so hard to think that he wasn't always part of our family!

Referral picture (taken in June of 2010):



 Mommy's little tiger:



We LOVE YOU Tinsae! We are SO, SO HAPPY that you have joined our family!




Tuesday, October 18, 2011

Destruction of Yogi & BooBoo

This past Sunday afternoon, Noah, Muluken, Tinsae and Brad went to pick out pumpkins (something Noah has begged us to do since I came home from Ethiopia!). They came home with 3 fairly large pumpkins; one for each of the boys. (Have no idea why they wouldn't get the girls a pumpkin, but oh well!)

Noah and Muluken took the pumpkins out to the field and cleaned out the insides of all three. They then pulled all the seeds from the pumpkin guts and let Brad soak them in water and toast them in the oven. Yummy!





Later that evening, the 2 boys went outside and Noah carved the pumpkin faces. Noah did awesome! (Please note: I had NOTHING to do with letting Noah carve the pumpkins with a sharp knife! That was ALL Brad's doing!)


Later that night, Noah, Muluken and Tinsae called me down to the living room and pointed out to the deck. There were 3 glowing pumpkins sitting on the deck with 3 proud little boys looking on! Adorable!!


The kids didn't have school on Monday (parent-teacher conferences), so the boys played the day away outside. Running, jumping, riding bikes, playing football, etc. They also played with the goats, Yogi & BooBoo.


The boys came into the house later in the afternoon for a break. Yogi & BooBoo missed them, so they climbed up onto the deck and looked into the house, wondering where their friends went. 


The next thing you know, Yogi & BooBoo started devouring the pumpkins. Noah started yelling and ran out there. It was just too late. Yogi already had one pumpkin in 4 pieces. Noah would lift the pumpkin up in the air and Yogi would just jump up on Noah and continue to eat.


The DESTRUCTION of Yogi and BooBoo:












 

Monday, October 17, 2011

3 Weeks Home...

Tinsae has been home in America for 3 weeks. And oh what a 3 weeks it has been! He’s been a very busy boy with going to football & volleyball games, visiting Mom’s school, shopping at the mall and Walmart, going to a car wash, riding 4-wheelers in the woods, riding his new bike, playing with his new toys and trucks, jumping on the trampoline, reading books with his family, visiting his Grandma’s homes, going to church, going for a wagon ride, picking up his cousin from college, riding a John Deere riding lawn mower/tractor, playing in a leaf pile, getting his first “American” haircut, taking bubble baths with toys, going to the library, and plenty more that I can’t even remember right now.






Communication: Tinsae has learned SO MANY words since he’s been home. He can name lots of animals and make their animal sound. Here are a list of his new words: mommy, daddy, grandma, Cassie, Jordan, Noah, Muluken, Tinsae, Tia, Toby, Tiger, Bo Bo, Big Boys (horses), Yogi & Boo Boo (goats), big Sammy, Junior, Lily, Lucky, Ruby, Jordy, shoes, jammies, jacket, boots, hat, gloves, semi, car, truck, tractor, pumpkin, bike, jump (trampoline), school bus, airplane, bird, duck, elephant, goose, cow, horse, pig, frog, dog, cat, fish, turtle, cheese, bread, juice, milk, water, cake, pancake, chips, stop, yes, no, hurry up, come on, more, please, and thank you. He understands a whole lot more than he can say and is able to follow a lot of verbal directives by all of us. He is beginning to tell us what he doesn’t want to do or eat by using “no” or “all done”. 

Food: Tinsae likes to eat! When we were in Africa, Tinsae would usually eat injera with some of his authentic Ethiopian food. But, since coming to America, he has really broadened his eating habits. He LOVES candy, chocolate, and Diet Mountain Dew. But, of course he eats a lot more than that! LOL!! Hot dogs, spaghetti O’s, ravioli, any kind of chips, pizza, French fries, chicken nuggets, chili, oatmeal, corn pops, pumpkin bread, string cheese, bananas, grapes, chicken teraki, ketchup, eggs, pancakes, cookies, waffles, peanut butter, juice, milk, and water. We have him try one bite of anything new and then he usually likes it. He really likes to dip almost everything in ketchup; just like his daddy!

Sleep:  Tinsae goes to bed between 7:30 and 8pm every night. Sometimes he whines for Muluken to go to bed with him, but for the most part, he will just lay down. He has been known to wake up anywhere from 5:30 to 7:45am, depending how tired he is and how LOUD his brothers are in the morning. I’ve been trying to have him take a short nap in the afternoon, but he REALLY does not like to do that. I only have him lay down for about an hour or so, because I want to make sure he is good and tired to sleep through the night. When he first came home, Tinsae totally fought the nap by crying, screaming, and getting out of his bed and opening his bedroom door. But after about 3 days of afternoon naps, he now stays in his bed and when he wakes up, he calls for his mommy. 

Getting Dressed & Bath Time: Tinsae likes to put on his jammies every night and he also likes to get dressed every morning. He never complains about what we put on him, but he wants to make sure he can put his shoes on right away. He’s wearing 24 month-2T clothing and a size 8 in shoes and boots. We bought him a winter jacket, in which took a little getting used to, but now he wants it on to go play outside with his big brothers! At first, he was a little hesitant to go into the bathtub with all the bubbles and then have to sit down was really scary for him. But since the first few days, he LOVES to take baths and likes to play with the small toys (letters and numbers) we put in there. Like Muluken, we have to lotion Tinsae up every morning and evening and we put in some awesome hair lotion too! 


Tinsae loves to rough-house with anyone in the family. It can be in our bed, on the living floor or outside playing tackle football. He can do somersaults across the living room and jump up and down like a frog. He likes to play with his cars and trucks in the living room and sit on your lap looking at his picture books. Tinsae has a really cute personality, always imitating people or pictures of things he sees. He requests “dance” while in the car when he wants you to turn the music on. He can really shake his little butt and already shows some rhythm in his little body! 

I think I might have found a babysitter for him when I go back to work, which is going to be a huge relief off my shoulders. Knowing that we really need to have a strong attachment before he goes to another caregiver, I have been really working hard with him on snuggling, hugging, kissing, taking care of his “hurts”, holding his hand, rubbing his back, and building trust in our relationship. I want to make sure we have a strong bond before letting somebody else be his “go to” person. It’s so hard to even think about going back to work right now. I want to make sure he knows I’m his mommy and I will be here for him.
I know we have a ways to go on sharing! Muluken and Noah have been showing him some of the cool toys from the downstairs, but Tinsae thinks that they are all his. We have been having a few battles lately, but I think that is typical 3-year old stuff.

Tinsae LOVES to be on the go. He will ask to go in my truck (machina) every day. He also asks to go to Grandma’s house too! He ALWAYS wants to be outside, even with the cooler weather! Every school bus we see is Noah’s bus, because we watched Noah get off the school bus once at our home! He points out every tractor, lake or pond, airplane, and SEMI!!

Tinsae is VERY ticklish and also likes to tickle you right back! He’s learned how to give wet willies and even cow kisses! He’ll jump on top of you if you’re lying on the couch and he’ll shake his finger at you if you’ve done something wrong. He dances all over the house and even sings Amharic songs in which we have NO IDEA what he is saying! 

Tinsae is simply ADORABLE, CUTE, SWEET, STUBBORN, BEAUTIFUL, GOOFY, and OURS!! We LOVE you Tinsae and are so happy you have joined our family!






Friday, October 14, 2011

Kitties anyone???

While I was in Ethiopia, one of our indoor/outdoor kitties had 5 little kittens. There a little over 3 weeks right now and adorable!