The Wait...

Our dossier was received at Holt International's office in Eugene, Oregon on Friday, April 8th. Since that time, all we have done for the adoption is wait. We haven't received any new emails, mail, or phone calls. Not that I expected to hear anything, but I am hoping that our dossier makes it to Ethiopia in record time and we receive an email that we are submitted to court. I know we are a few months out before that might happen, but I sure would love a surprise!


I can't help my mind from wandering throughout every day and night. I think about the long flights to Ethiopia. I think about how long Tinsae has been in care. I think about how big he will be and if he is happy. I wonder what his laugh sounds like and how tall he is. I wonder how soft his curls are and what his toes look like.



I worry about traveling to Durame by myself, since Brad won't be returning to Ethiopia on the second trip. I worry about bringing Tinsae home by myself. I worry about how we are going to afford the plane tickets and hotel bill. I worry about what to pack and what I will do with Tinsae at the hotel all by myself. I worry a LOT!



So, what does a person do to keep busy?

I take my kids to the mall to walk. I go to work. I clean my closets. I call my family and friends. I surf the Internet for anything adoption-related. I love on my pets. I buy more pets (baby goats). I watch a lot of HGTV and any reality shows. I play on my iPad. I pray. I pray a lot. I thank God everyday for my family and I ask him to keep Tinsae safe, healthy, and happy. I ask him to hold him and love him.



The wait. It is so hard. I pray for patience with this process. Patience...I really need help with this!

Today starts a new week. This week I want to remember Easter and the importance of Holy Week. I want to continue praying for Tinsae, but I also want to continue to think about Jesus and everything he did for us.


Ethiopian people have so much faith. You could feel their love of God. Muluken has such a true love for God. When he talks about Jesus, his eyes light up and he gets excited. I have learned so much from him within myself.


Patience. Holy Week. Adoption. Tinsae. Muluken. Ethiopia. Family.


Telling myself to just BREATHE.


Taking one day at a time...and waiting...