A Rollercoaster of Emotions

One moment, I'm so darn excited, I can hardly contain myself. Within minutes, I feel so sad that I could start crying.

The court date is looming...December 4th. So many things can happen. Court could be postponed. Paperwork could be missing. Family members might not appear. The list goes on.

But, then we might pass court on the first time...that would be wonderful! But, then the worry about when we'll get our travel dates. Will we get the December 29th assemby date? Will we be pushed into January? Will Brad be able to travel to Africa in January around his business travel schedule? Will we be pushed back even further?

Yes, these are the thoughts running through my head. 24-7. I can't stop thinking! I'm trying to stay positive. I'm trying to keep busy. And then the thoughts come back into my head and play like a recording~over and over and over.

I know I need to get my Christmas shopping and decorating done. I know I need to clean Noah's closet and get ready for 2 boys to share the closet. I know I need to start thinking about travel supplies, packing lists, and everything else that would lead to a safe travel experience to Africa.

So, I sit here and type. I didn't get to the closet. I actually didn't do much of anything today. I went to 2 craft shows with my Mom and then headed to Kmart for Cassie's prescriptions. Came home and watched some HGTV with my pups, and then Christmas shopped via online. Again, not much of anything.

So, tomorrow I vow I need to get something done. Maybe even start a list of things I need to take with us to Africa. Maybe, I will begin cleaning out the closet. Maybe, I'll get to Kohl's to spend my free money. Or, maybe I'll just sit and think. And pray! I know God is holding our little boy and giving him comfort while he waits for us to come. God has a travel plan for us. I just need some patience!